So, here we go.   Who am I?  I'm a 34 year old wife of one amazing guy and  mother of 3 .  My kids are 5, 3, and 1.  My husband works swing shifts right now, so our schedules are pretty crazy.  I love Jesus, and I struggle with mental illness.  That doesn't make me less of a christian or have less faith than any other christian.  It does make it hard so me days to see the joy.  It does make it hard some days to feel like God cares, or anybody cares.  It makes me hold fast to what I KNOW is true about God even when it doesn't FEEL true.   I'm calling this "But A Dim Reflection."  That's from 1 Corinthians 13:12,  " Now we see but a dim reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known."  I tend to go back here when things get difficult.  I need the reminder that I do not see God fully nor do I see his plans fully.  I do not have the whole picture, but God does.  I